Wednesday, April 30, 2014

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I can't believe it's 2014 and just reading my last post of 2013 and writing about  " at least having posted".  I wrote as though I had been able to check off a box of my long, long list of things to do.  Not a coincidence that my mom just called;  there's a whole list of it's own relating to my mom and things I'd like to do for/with her.

All of the things on Nov 13th's post are still on my list.  

Now I will tell you my deepest secret.  Every time I think about "what I'm going to do with the rest of my life" I come up with a internal battle.  Do I want to make money or serve the Lord?  I know that sounds like such a stupid question.  For the non-believer it's a no brainer- Make money of course.  For the believer, which I'd prefer to call myself, it's also a no-brainer- Serve the Lord.  He says; serve me, and I'll take care of the rest!  I do believe that and so keep trying to fly on my own strength (a big no-no, and satan's work) and just get stymied.

Patience is another big word with our Lord.  Look how long Moses waited!  I do pray for the Lord's will for my life while keeping a little of my own in my back pockets.  The same was true with vices and still is with smoking.  

Ok Lord;  I'm praying for wisdom, humility, grace and your will for me!


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